Hey blog...

I'm only writing because this is the only way I can get it out.

Everything's changing and I'm not ready. I need some kind of guidance and I rarely feel like I'm getting it. I should pray, but when I start to do anything spiritual, I get this feeling that rushes through my body and makes me cry. Anne says it's God's love. I can only hope so. I hardly pray, and I should change that, but when I do, I feel like it's almost wrong of me to ask Him of anything since I rarely *speak* to Him. I just feel selfish whenever I pray. I dunno. Anyone have anything to add?...